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Monday, May 19th, 2008
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6:13 pm - misc - and a walkthrough.
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well, i actually made up for my lack of getting things done yesterday but getting things done today. yes, i spent a good part of the morning standing at the window drinking tea, but i actually got up at 9.30. yes, 9.30. AM!
why did this happen? i have no idea. i got to sleep at 4.30am. i should feel dead. instead, i'm fine. mind, i did go back to bed to read for a bit before lunch...
it's the goji berries! they're giving me magical powers!!!
anyway! i got stuff done! posted stuff. even showered. yes, it is indeed a wonderous day.
ooh, and as a little note here: some of my gift wrapping supplies arrived. i gift wrap my orders now, instead of just using boring packaging. and most of it's recycled too.
go try it.
order something.
order something expensive - i'll use extra ribbon!
i've continued work on my watch picture, and figured that since i'm taking in progress shots, i'll make a walkthrough of sorts. it'll be a crappy one, because i forgot to start actually at the start, but from here on in it'll be a walkthrough.
let's call this step 2, shall we? since step 1 was the first picture...and all the other steps before that died or something.
Step 2.
( walkthrough instalment one behind here )
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12:52 am - Work in Progress
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so, the picture i'm excited about working on is waiting on a reference picture before i can really get going, and the portrait of my sister i'm working on is waiting for a photo too.
so, with a million and one other things to do, i decided to start painting a watch, which so far i'm kinda happy with.
once again, posting some WIP shots, and once again it didn't occur to me until this point.
sorry to bombard you with works in progress these days, but i have to do this as evidence that i DO actually paint my stuff, not tweak photos. should've remembered right from the start, but i've got a lot more to do so i'll remember to take screenshots as it progresses.
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| Sunday, May 18th, 2008
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11:38 pm - for the love of god, make her stop posting
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![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) elf_fu introduced me to zoe keating through a video in her journal.
i completely love her stuff. it speaks to me more than i can tell you, and i'll be indebted to elf_fu forever for introducing me to it.
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7:33 pm - Original for sale
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i have updated my website, and now the original artwork "three" is available for sale.
just click the thumbnail for details.
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6:08 pm - i don't have time for this
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i'm really really good at the whole procrastination thing. really good.
i have a whole bunch of work to do, and so far i've sent two emails.
i tried tackling some website updates, but decided i'd update better with a hot chocolate. and, you know, the hot chocolate would be a whole lot better if i ran down to the 7-11 and got a freddo frog to disolve into it...or maybe two....
but no, that's bad for me. i'll be a fasttrack to diabetes...if i'm not already.
just a normal hot chocolate is sufficiently bad for you, thankyou very much, get back to work.
and then i tell myself "but it's 6.15 on a sunday! nobody works at 6.15 on a sunday!plus, you're not feeling very well. why not go take a book and read in the bath?"
of course, most people don't sleep until noon most days either. some people actually get up and get to work.
and most people don't run a hot bath, start reading their book and get so wrapped up in it that they don't notice the bath water go cold. the way it usually plays out is that it dawns on seth i've been in there for a very long time and he bangs on the door to check that i haven't drowned.
once distracted from my book, i realise i'm sitting in a tub of freezing cold water and shivering uncontrollably, ala "what's eating gilbert grape?".
i then have to spend the rest of the evening trying to regain some sort of normal body temperature.
yes, i'm actually too stupid to realise i'm slowly freezing to death.
it's beyond stupid and pathetic.
working's much safer, really. at least, i assume it is. i wouldn't know, since i haven't actually done any.
i HAVE, however, had a hot chocolate, put my hair in a ponytail, walked around and around the loungeroom, put on a clean pair of socks, taken a vitamin, observed my new ear stretchings in the mirror, adjusted the height of my chair (up, then down, and then back to the original height), taken my hair out of a ponytail and had a glass of juice.
and now made a pointless journal entry.
this calls for a limerick to mark this event:
"there once was this time wasting person,
who was a bit of a time wasting person!
they spent all their time
just wasting time
that terrible time wasting person!"
yes, i'm an artist AND a poet. my god i'm great.
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1:18 am - when did i turn into such a tosser?
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i did some work at my mum's today - some yard work, bathing the dogs, etc. then, having dinner there, i suddenly became FREEZING. even more than i usually am. and then, after a bit of time freezing and feeling too tired to eat much dinner, i was suddenly boiling.
i had a hot chocolate with extra chocolate on the top (seriously, try this - make yourself some hot chocolate on milk and then shovel 'flake' onto the top of it. stir and drink. you'll either thoroughly enjoy it or vomit. either way.) which, naturally, made me feel better.
i mean, come on, it was chocolate.
after getting home though, i found it hard to stand up and felt like the room was spinning. and i definitely have a fever. i put it down to my now infected ear stretchings. ick.
my response to this? to bathe the area in tea-tree oil, to take vitamins, to eat goji berries, drink water and herbal tea (bleck. herbal tea is nasty as far as i'm concerned) and generally go about getting better in an entirely wanky way.
in the past, i would've dealt with it by dousing it with rubbing alcohol while screaming into a towel and then stubbornly ignoring it until it damned well hurried up and got better!
why do i now use things like this as an excuse to turn into such a little hot-house orchid, mincing about eating 'super foods' (what in the HELL is a super food?) and taking brand name vitamins?
centrum, since you asked, and no, i'm not feeling 100%. those lying bastards.
i never used to go in for namby pamby rubbish like goji berries and vitamins and health foods (yes chocolate is a health food. yes it is. it is, look it up.) and now i read labels, looking favourably on things like 'organic' and 'antioxidants'.
i have some sort of beetroot juice in my fridge. and i drink it. to wash down the goji berries.
and i meditate. and moisturise. and eat salad regularly. ON PURPOSE.
what in the hell happened to me?
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just as a side, spellcheck suggests i change both "namby" and "pamby" to "rambo". i think i'd prefer to be "rambo pamby", "namby rambo" or even "rambo rambo" over "namby pamby", now that i think about it. thanks spellcheck! couldn't get by without you!
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| Friday, May 16th, 2008
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8:06 pm - life imitates art
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for a while, my little livejournal title of my journal in my profile has been:
"The Journal Of Good" - by a sod
the anorak almanac
and as it turns out, my one true jacket love that i've gone on and on about in here is officially called "the samantha anorak".
it's always been called the anorak almanac, BUT NOW IT'S TRUE!!!
hmmmm. something to ponder. or not.
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| Thursday, May 15th, 2008
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8:41 pm - black and white are all i see in my infancy
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working on a new artwork that i'm actually VERY excited about.
don't get too excited about my art this often. but i'm totally caught up in this one.
and that's all i'm saying right now. 8-)
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| Wednesday, May 14th, 2008
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5:56 pm - selfish livejournal usage
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ok, so i'm using livejournal in a selfish manner - updating without replying to posts. i'm so behind that i haven't even replied to comments to me, and it's rude and selfish but i'm going to update AGAIN now too. yes yes, i'm a bastard.
fwiw, i DO read every post. i just get so behind on the commenting....and my inbox is bulging and i've got work to do....igg.
a webpage i'd set up for somebody before had some serious problems i've been trying to fix, and it took FOREVER. i was wading through so, so much code and running debuggers and nothing was finding the problem for me, and then i finally found it myself and it was some totally stupid tiny little error in a number that had changed and was screwing everything up. should've taken 30 seconds to fix, but took me hours to find it. i could've kicked myself.
i'm also working on a webpage for a client right now, and laurie texted me this morning to see if i wanted her to tattoo me today.
so i went down there and she redid the star and heart behind my ears, and then she had a random "surprise" for me.
she'd bought these beautiful spiral tapers, so we stretched my ears up today too. look pretty much like these.
OMG IT HURT SO MUCH!
apparently it was quite an impressive stretch for a first stretch (from just a tiny hole for studs to about 8 gauge laurie reckons), so that made me feeling better about being a wuss with the pain. also, despite such a large stretch, there was no tearing and no blood. huzzah! still, it looks tiny for how much it hurt...
they're bright red too. putting my head on the pillow tonight is going to suck - i have a fresh tattoo and a fresh stretched earlobe either side. ouch.
still, they're nicer tapers.
when my ears aren't so bright red i'll take photos.
then, in a fit of "damnit i'm working really hard and there ain't nothing wrong with warm clothes - especially if they vary from the rest of my wardrobe by not being black", i put my beloved green jacket on layby.
i'm doing a shiteload of work on this website, seth's getting student payment for uni soon, and damnit, i'm always cold. i'll pay it off. it's worth it. it's so cushy and warm...it feels like wearing a featehr doona. mmmmm. plus, i just plain look hot in it. so there. it'll be mine.
and now is the end of my rather pointless and self indulgent post. time to get back to work. but first, a panadol for the old ears!
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| Monday, May 12th, 2008
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1:27 am - busy
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been busy all weekend. friends for dinner friday, out saturday, 21st birthday saturday night and spent the night at my mum's. sunday at mum's for mother's day. got home about 9.30pm. busy!
i've yet to catch up on a bunch of emails and stuff, but i decided to kick back and relax by ebaying some items i'm currently lusting after and can't afford.
worst luck, on of them IS on ebay, cheaper, but still out of my price range right now.
super warm looking green jacket.
it just looks SO warm. mmm...warm.
in winter, my life revolves around heat. which reminds me - i think i intend to buy a halogen heater. they are supposed to be super efficient. really heat up a room but low on power. anybody own one and find it good? yes? no? shut the hell up amy?
the other thing i want is sadly (or, maybe not so sadly, given i don't really NEED them yet and can't afford clothing splurges right now) not on ebay. and they're revoltingly expensive at the shop. new jeans! jeans don't hold up very well for me. well, maybe they do. i wear them literally every day and for pretty much every task - gardening, walking, dressing up to go out. the deal with a lot of shit and they give out early.
they live short, tortured little lives. there's a special spot in jean hell just waiting for me.
anyway, i found what appears to be the most perfect and flattering cut of jeans on me EVER (as much as i wear jeans, i know they don't do much for me look-wise. except!! except these ones DO. or would. whatever) but they're $99.
they'd have to be "wear for nice and not for the gardening" jeans only. i'd feel stupid just wearing out a $99 pair of jeans at the same rate as my $45 jeans. i thought jeans were made to last!
in conclusion: i've barely slept over the weekend and have no idea what i'm writing about.
we're out of those gluten free noodle snacks i love. and i'm hungry but they're all i want to eat.
my eyelids feel as though they're making a metal shovel scraping on concrete type sound on my eyeballs with each blink. perhaps time for bed.
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| Thursday, May 8th, 2008
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2:15 am - oh no..it happened.
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i've started to get old. i knew it had tohappen....actually, that's not true. i knew it theory, but i suppose i somehow thought that i could magically dodge a bullet and never age. it seems not.
and worse, i'm not an old woman. i'm an old MAN.
recently, i've caught myself at my blinds, peeking through them and out the window to keep an etye on kids who were "up to something". as it turns out, they were. graffiti-ing (can that possibly be how you spell that?) and smoking. and they were like 11. 11 year olds smoke now? what the hell?
i've also noticed i hate popular music, current trends, kids on mobile phones, kids on skateboards, underpants protruding from jeans and if i eat late at night i get reflux and heartburn. which makes me cranky. and i take enough vitamins to rattle.
hello, i'm an old man.
next month, it'll be officially one year since i noticed my first wrinkle. and i think it's gotten worse. see, i have this habit orrasing my eyebrows all the time, and above my right eye there are a few creases that don't quite 100% go away when i lower my brows. i know they're normal...but still. it happened to me. to. ME. i guess i just never thought it would.
and now i seem to have reached a point in my life where i would be perfectly happy to move to a beachside house (this is no change, i've always wanted this) and wear clothes i order from mail-order catalogues that arrive at my house. you know those kind - they advertise bad clothes (everything has a "nautical stripe" and all the shirts and jackets are knee length), slippers, bird feeders, weirdarse jewellery, indoor water features and random clock radio devices of no use to any bugger EVER.
i see myself wearing knee-length bad clothes, having an extensive selection of pajamas and spending my days collecting driftwood before going home and drinking tea and wearing a blanket and looking all blank but cosy like those people in the oatmeal commercials.
...i'm old enough to see the appeal in being an oatmeal commercial person...
OH GOD.
i used to see my life unfolding more like the solo commercials. remember that guy that kayaks down a hill, through the jungle?
and i have a nasty feeling that as i age i'm going to get more and more set in more and more bizarre and boring habits. i've recently taken to doing crosswords, home alone in my pajamas in the middle of the day. any day now i'll start cutting all the coupons from the paper..."buy 20 shoelaces and get the 21st half price! that'll save! cut on dotted line...." *snip, snip, snip*
it's a slippery slope*, i tells ya. and i'm going down hill fast.
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*but not in a good way...not a slippery slope like the solo commercial slope the guy kayaks down or anything. nothing like that,
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| Tuesday, May 6th, 2008
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11:48 pm - a public apology
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i just had to apologise for misreading due to not having glasses, and it served as a reminder: i wish to make a public apology.
so, to all the people i know in real life who i may have seemingly snubbed or blanked or whatever in town over the last....well, let's say 6 months - i'm sorry.
i seem to have horrible long distance vision and need glasses.
the other night seth and i were out at the uni bar and i was saying we needed to say hi to this guy there we knew, because we were being rude. seth handed me his glasses, i look at this guy: NOT THE GUY WE KNOW DOES NOT EVEN LOOK LIKE HIM.
i also had a conversation with a coffee machine some months ago, thinking it was my mum. it...uh...wasn't.
i am sorry. i'm getting glasses. i'll say hi to everyone again after that. in the meantime, if you see me walking blindly down the road, please point me in the direction of home.
oh, and if i think a coffee machine is you and i start talking to you/it, the least you could do is have the good manners to answer when i speak to you/it. i mean, RUDE!
thankyou.
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| Monday, May 5th, 2008
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1:33 pm - just so you know:
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IT'S BLOODY FREEZING HERE AND I'M SICK OF IT AND I WANT TO VISIT CALIFORNIA WHERE IT'S SUNNY AND WARM AND FUN THE END THANKYOU.
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| Saturday, May 3rd, 2008
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8:22 pm - new art
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"Marine Mammal"
little 4 x 4 inch picture on canvas which is on a frame 1 and a half inches deep. original for sale for $40.
and just for scale:
flash kinda washes it out a tad, but that's a flash for you.
anyway! two new pictures in a week! my god, what the hell has happened to me!??!!??!
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| Wednesday, April 30th, 2008
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2:41 pm - New artwork
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rather boringly entitled "three".
acrylic on stretched canvas.
( bigger picture here )
not really sure what else to say about that. original is for sale.
i'm cold and hungry and can't think of more writingful stuff.
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| Tuesday, April 29th, 2008
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11:21 pm - the good
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the good news is that my vitamin d supplements seem to be working. i'm not my usual, cheery enthusiastic 'i'm pollyanna!' self (hahahahaha. oh, i crack me up), but i haven't cried myself to sleep in a few days now, and i've even managed to get back on track with getting work done.
behind on emails and so forth, but getting there. so that's something.
i also got client approval on a webdesign, so it's forward to the coding. i'm going to be doing some database coding i've never done before, which worries me a little, but i'm also excited and looking forward to it. and then when that's done, i need to code some sort of user interface. it's going to be a massive challenge, but i'm up for it.
yesterday i got this candle from spotlight. it's a chocolate sundae candle (ijust accidentally typed "cangle" instead of "candle". wtf? what the hell is a cangle? (it should be noted that i make a lot of typos these days, due to needing a new keyboard. and a new mouse. the buttons don't work on the mouse anymore. it's actually thoroughly useless)) in a glass, and it smells SOOOO good. actually like real rich chocolate. i've got it by the computer here and i keep getting headspins from inhaling so deeply all the time.
in fact, last night i was falling asleep holding it in bed with me, snorting it at every opportunity. every time i went to put it down i had to have on last smell....
i might have to buy another one...
and i've been using some natural instinct
face wash, as recommended by selinafenech in her journal a while back. it's awesome. it's all natural, organic, animal products free, harsh chemical free etc etc. and it makes my skin feel SO GOOD. usually face cleansers dry my skin out, but this cleanser is thoroughly awesome, and it feels so rich and creamy.
i'll certainly be buying myself some of the moisturiser in it soon. i'm totally sold now.
also good: i have two delicious gluten free hot chocolates in the kitchen. choc caramel and choc mint. and i have a hot water bottle waiting for me in my bed. yes oh yes oh yes.
and the bad? trying not to dwell on that. awash in a sea of mice. missing two nights in a row of our new jogging program (i've actually managed to convince seth we should jog together. and we are....uh...did. we've missed two nights now...and probably tomorrow night too?).
and the cold, my god, the cold. trying to look on the bright side and see it as an excuse to be all cosy with blankets and hot chocolate and nice jammies...i bought that idea as the days got greyer and the nights drew in, but i'm totally not buying it now that it's actually cold.
and isn't it cold?
even our rat has his own hot waterbottle filled every day and night now, to keep him toasty.
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| Saturday, April 26th, 2008
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12:47 am - also also also
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this just in - i think i'm officially insane.
after talking to seth the other day, i actualy confessed two of my greatest fears at the moment:
1. wasp nests spontaneously appearing in places where they don't belong (for instance, in cracks in my walls or on corpses) but with no wasps to be seen or heard for miles around
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2. the sun running out. i know science tells us we've got a fair bit of time to enjoy it, but science can be wrong. and even if it DOES run out billions of years from now, what happens to the living creatures and plants then? WHAT HAPPENS THEN!!!!!!!???????!!!!!
on the bright side, neither of these things have happened (as i write this, that is...you might need to go outside and check the sun is still there for yourself).
the first one was a dream. the second an uninvited thought.
i also realise these fears are irrational, and as such i don't stay awake at night worrying about them (well...i stay awake worryng about 1. more than 2.), but when i think of them they certainly cause me anxiety, and i know i think about them too much.
seth suggested i worry about nucleur warfare and economy crashes and suchforth instead, given that it's much more likely to happen during my lifetime than the sun expiring. but no can do. why the hell worry about what i can't change!??!?
now that WOULD be irrational. sheesh.
i swear, with every passing day i'm edging closer and closer to butterfly-net territory.
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| Friday, April 25th, 2008
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6:31 pm - bah!
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this just in: i have too much on my plate right now. too too too many projects.
it's a long weekend. i might spend it doing some art. nothing super in depth - i'm kinda sick of the amount of energy each big digital artwork takes. months and months and months.
i feel like doodling. perhaps i will. see me doodle (note, not MY doodle. 8-o )
also: it's goddamned cold in here.
also also: when cutting one's own hair, keep in mind that cutting it in a poorly lit room with blunt scissors doesn't really do a lot to help. and when cutting, one should have a hairstyle in mind from the start.
hacking randomly to 'see what we wind up with' really doesn't work as well as i thought it might.
lastly: i love goat milk and goat cheese. i wish it were cheaper. i'd live on the stuff (and probably grow very, very fat).
that is all. consider yourself informed!
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| Tuesday, April 15th, 2008
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11:35 pm - the agony of choice
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thursday, laurie and pru go apply for a temporary residency visa for pru.
thursday, seth (for the first time) is having something he composed played by the uni musicians.
visa appointment - sydney. seth's music - wollongong.
there's both important events i want to and should be there for. and there's a slight chance that i might be able to. if all goes well, i might be able to watch eth's thing at about 10, jump on a train at 11 and make it ok.
still, things tend to run late. the thing starting at 10 probably won't start until 10.45. and the 11 train probably runs late and gets in too late for the visa appointment, meaning i'll have to get the 10am one, which, running late, probably leaves at 10.15.
i feel bad, because i want to go to both. but i think it comes down to a matter of worst case scenario.
seth's worst case scenario sees me needing to: give him a huge, reassure him that he's a good composer, maybe today wasn't so great, but learn from it. don't beat yourself up about it. keep writing, i really believe you're talented and this is what you should be doing.
laurie's worst case scenario sees me needing to: reassure the in tears pru, reassure the stone faced laurie, reassure my freaked out mum. pull laurie off the visa case officer, saying "murder won't fix it", help find back up plans and other options, stop anybody from committing suicide.
i should go with laurie and pru. even though i'm sure everything will be ok, i know firsthand how awful apply for the right to live with your partner is, constantly living in the fear that they'll be taken away from you at any second, and that your world might come crashing down around you just because you didn't meet printed guidelines.
it's awful, and i'm so thankful to be through it after so many years. offering my support to laurie and pru (even though, in all reality, there's not much i can do) is the least i can do after all the support seth and i got.
fingers crossed.
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| Thursday, April 3rd, 2008
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11:51 pm - epic fail
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i shouldn't be typing, but i just had to record this:
yesterday a bunch of random crap things happened, and the day finished with me accidentally tipping a saucepan full of boiling water sideways on the burner. boiling water splashed all over my leg.
i managed to rip my pants off and grab a carton of icecream from the freezer in a matter of moments, and luckily today, though sore, my leg is fine.
today the $2 i was trying to buy a drink with rolled down a drain, causing me to do this undignified (and, ultimately, pointless) arse up in the air hands scrabbling at the coin run.
i failed. it plopped down the drain. goodbye coin.
and also today, the windy weather blew through our rusted open kitchen window, blowing the blinds which knocked potted plants and a glass vase into a sink and benchful of dirty dishes.
the place was covered in broken glass, broken pottery, wet potting mix, broken plants, river stones and random drops of blood from my cut fingers.
holy hell. from one disaster to the next at the moment, i swear.
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