the agony of choice
thursday, laurie and pru go apply for a temporary residency visa for pru.
thursday, seth (for the first time) is having something he composed played by the uni musicians.
visa appointment - sydney. seth's music - wollongong.
there's both important events i want to and should be there for. and there's a slight chance that i might be able to. if all goes well, i might be able to watch eth's thing at about 10, jump on a train at 11 and make it ok.

still, things tend to run late. the thing starting at 10 probably won't start until 10.45. and the 11 train probably runs late and gets in too late for the visa appointment, meaning i'll have to get the 10am one, which, running late, probably leaves at 10.15.

i feel bad, because i want to go to both. but i think it comes down to a matter of worst case scenario.
seth's worst case scenario sees me needing to: give him a huge, reassure him that he's a good composer, maybe today wasn't so great, but learn from it. don't beat yourself up about it. keep writing, i really believe you're talented and this is what you should be doing.

laurie's worst case scenario sees me needing to: reassure the in tears pru, reassure the stone faced laurie, reassure my freaked out mum. pull laurie off the visa case officer, saying "murder won't fix it", help find back up plans and other options, stop anybody from committing suicide.

i should go with laurie and pru. even though i'm sure everything will be ok, i know firsthand how awful apply for the right to live with your partner is, constantly living in the fear that they'll be taken away from you at any second, and that your world might come crashing down around you just because you didn't meet printed guidelines.
it's awful, and i'm so thankful to be through it after so many years. offering my support to laurie and pru (even though, in all reality, there's not much i can do) is the least i can do after all the support seth and i got.
fingers crossed.